Needed Reassurance

Last night I had a minor freak out session. Just minor. There was no panic attacks and loss of breathing. Just a lot of unnecessary thinking that involved me freaking out.

No big deal.

I started doing the whole "you always want what you can't have" type thing. Why am I going to Arizona? I hate the desert and crazy hot weather. I like the beach, I like seasons. What's wrong with me? I'm going to feel trapped in Arizona where there is nothing for miles except cactus'. Awesome.

But then my mom calmed me down a bit and made me think of all the reasons why I chose Arizona. I'm quite the planner and thinker and therefore, it's obvious I didn't make my college decision on some whim. I thought it out. So what were the things I loved about Arizona so much that San Diego paled in comparison?

After thinking all those things through, my heart rate was back to normal and so was my mind. Sometimes all we need is a little reassurance that we made the right decision. Moms are usually the best for that type of reassurance. :)

Fill in the Blank Friday!

1. My favorite color is light blue. Like a aquamarine, turquoise type blue.

2. My travel destination of choice is Italy. Everyday I dream about Italy.

3. My favorite food is fruit. A big fruit salad is my favorite things in the world.

4. My happy place is anywhere in a good chair, with an amazing cup of coffee and a book.

5. My favorite saying is "Remember, if you ever need a helping hand, it's at the end of your arm, as you get older, remember you have another hand: The first is to help yourself, the second is to help others." and

"For attractive lips, speak words of kindness.

For lovely eyes, seek out the good in people.

For a slim figure, share your food with the hungry.

For beautiful hair, let a child run his or her fingers through it once a day.

For poise, walk with the knowledge that you never walk alone. "

6. Something friends might say about me is that I am happy? Wacky? haha I don't know!

Falling in love on a ferris wheel

Growing up, my mom was not fond of the State Fair or any carnival/fair in general. circus'? forget it. so i grew up not being entirely fond of them myself.

Yet I've always held a little love in my heart for ferris wheels and the swings that go so high in the air you feel like you are flying. it's probably the hopeless romantic in me. i secretly (or not so secretly now) hope that someday i'll have that Notebook style romance.

and we all know about the infamous Notebook ferris wheel scene. swoon!

i guess the fair is a little like Disneyland to me. it gives me a little hope and lets me feel five years old all over again.

Smile

Sometimes it takes me a while to admit how happy I am. I try to cover it up by thinking about the 10 bajillion things I have to do and just being happy gets lost until I have to remind myself that I actually am very happy.

But then sometimes you just have to give up. Let go of the chains pulling your shoulders back and just smile. one of those geeky, almost creepy, "why is she smiling so big?" kind of smiles.

Because those are the best smiles. and those are the best moments. when you let everything go, every little insignificant moment that's not worth your stress be free, you'll realize how easy it is just to smile and be happy!

Don't be afraid to let that geeky smile be seen every once in a while. heck, let it be seen every hour!

Photo: Here

Watch the Stars

I'm usually happiest when I am checking things off my to-do list and running at full speed.

But occasionally, all of that running becomes tiring and it's nice to just lay back and look up. The stars are one of those things that instantly remind me of how small I am and how big this wonderful earth is.

My friend and I went to this place called Top of the World to see our town from higher up and it was beautiful. Going from looking at the twinkly lights below us to the sparkly lights above us was unreal.

And it makes me all the more excited to star watch in Tahoe next week. :)

My Heart is Heavy

The bombings in Norway weigh my heart down with sadness. I don't understand what prompts someone to kill 92 people. All I can do is sit here and pray for those people's beautiful faces and for their families. Because truthfully, I can't even begin to imagine how they're feeling. 9/11 hit hard for every American but I am lucky to say I did not know anyone personally involved, therefore I have no experience with these kind of massacres.

All I can say is God bless their families and keep the ones who have passed on safe in Your arms.

To cheer up a little bit, I found this trailer for a movie called Main Street. It has 3 of my favorite things in it: The South, Colin Firth, and Orlando Bloom. Definitely seeing it. :)

What I Love This Friday

1. Roses in my Coke bottles.

2. Tahoe in a week with my friends!

3. Finishing a good book. Especially one set in the South. :)

4. Anxiously anticipating seeing this movie next week!

What are you loving today?

One of a kind

I am blessed with the best of the best type of friends right now. I have people that have my back, I can have a serious heart-to-heart with, laugh till we can't breathe, sweetest people ever kind of friends.

All the people below mean the absolute world to me. Without them I'd be lost and wandering. Well, I'd be me in middle school and let's just say I never want to go back to that girl.

So friends, if you are reading this, thank you. And if you have friends who are the best possible people in your eyes, you're lucky too.

We're all lucky if we have people we love in our life.

I'm not a shoe person...

Honestly.

I'm mostly all about TOMS. (see logo) I have about 5 pairs and a pretty aggressive TOMS tan to show for it.

But because I'm going to be moving out and have to stop stealing my sisters and moms shoes because I'm too cheap to buy my own shoes and like to buy clothes instead, (world's longest sentence-whew! Breathe...) I decided I should probably buy some sandals. My own sandals.

But then I fell in love... these gold and beautiful boat shoes caught my eye and I knew I had to get them. One look and I was a goner. But don't worry, I also picked up a pair of black sandals. I didn't completely fail in my mission.

I'm thinking they'll last me a good few years till I have to buy more shoes. :)