Homesick

Homesickness hit like a ton of bricks this morning. One second I'm watching 

E! and the next all the air is sucked out of me and the more I think about home and 

California, the harder it is to breathe. I try to push the thoughts back and remind myself

that I still have 14 days here but it's.so.hard.

This is the first semester where I haven't been home at all since I left for Arizona

in August. Sure, I've seen my parents because they came to me or I met them

in San Diego, but never once was I home in my safe familiar place. So many people

I go to school with live only 2 hours away and have been home numerous times

or they grew up in town so they see their family once a week or more! It's difficult

because you can't discuss this feeling of homesickness with them. They truly

don't know the feeling. 

When I was in elementary school, I played basketball. One of the worst feelings

in the sport was when someone would chest pass you the ball and it would end up

right in your stomach and suck all the air right out of your lungs. 

This is the only way I can describe being homesick sometimes. 

I'm ready for this semester to be over. And I still have 14 days.