So....

I'M GOING TO GRAD SCHOOL!!

I'm moving to Oregon in August to get my masters in Speech-Language Pathology and I couldn't be more excited!!

I have to be honest though. I was 99% sure this wasn't going to happen. I completely felt like God was telling me grad school was not a stop in my path and instead I needed to find alternatives. On MONDAY I was looking up apartments and jobs in the Sacramento area so I could be proactive and have a plan for once the summer ends. And honestly, I was content. I had grappled with the pain and rejection of not getting in anywhere all of March and April was spent picking up the pieces and trying to find a purpose. 

But God is sneaky like that. I think He wanted me to sweat it out a little bit and see how I handled it. And He wanted me to see that no matter the outcome, I would be fine regardless. 

My mom and I both agree that if I had heard in February or March when everyone else I know heard their good news, I probably would not have enjoyed it as much and would not have gone through the important journey I did. I wouldn't wish my March on anyone because it was filled with a lot of heartbreak and uncertainty but at the same time, isn't that when we learn the most? Isn't that when we realize how strong we really can be? I look back on the last two months and I think, "Dang, I'm proud of myself! High fives all around!"

Just as Whitney from Blonde Atlas wrote in her Saturday post, God places those periods of "Saturdays" in our lives for a reason. If I had not experienced my own Saturday, then my Sunday would not have been as sweet. My Sunday would not have been such a huge exhale and sense of relief. And as much as I struggled with the waiting in the beginning, I really do believe that I was trusting almost the whole way. I made plans, I updated resumes, I looked for jobs, I sought out advice, etc. etc.

So when I heard my exciting Sunday news, I was shocked, I was elated and I was emotional. I immediately called up everyone I hold dear and shouted the news to them. And because we had all been on this journey together, there were many joy-filled screams. 

And to close it all out, my parents and I bought some champagne and toasted to the roller coaster ride this spring has been. Is there any better way to celebrate??


"No discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful. Later on, however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for these who have been trained by it."
-Hebrews 12:11