Being Candid

this photo may not be of the best quality but i think it might be my favorite picture of myself. it's completely candid and i look happy.

these days i haven't been feeling like myself. i'm not sure if it's the constant sun surrounding me with no end in sight (where, oh, where are you clouds??), my very mediocre grades even with all the energy i put into them, or the fact that i have so much to look forward to and none of it has happened yet.

maybe it's all the above.

all i know is i'm tired of this funk. tired of october and yearning for november. change. yeah, i could use a little change.

but mostly i wish i could step out of body and whisper to myself, "be happy you fool! you have a brilliant life and even though you highly doubt this right now, but you will miss this time in your life. you will. so be happy."

i'll let you know how this goes. for now i'll watch the giants play.


lauren jean allece said...

I ran across a quote today that I'd written down months ago:

"One day, in retrospect, the years of struggle will strike you as the most beautiful."

I think it was Freud who said it. In any case, after a particularly rough day myself, it brought life back into perspective.

I love this post. It's honest and shows that you are a woman of great strength. These snags in life are just there to show us how strong we can actually be :)

Keep your chin up girl - and just remember to take it one breath at a time!

Nicole Marie said...

at least you're aware of the funk...
you need to make some immediate future plans to look forward to. like something fallish you realy want to do or a project you want to finish.

Stamp in My Passport said...

I know exactly what you mean. It's hard to find motivation sometimes! Thanks for keeping it real (: