the other night, right before i laid my head down, after all my prayers were sent out, i decided i needed to write down a few lines. i haven't written any poems in quite some time and this moment of realizing i had something that needed to be said was completely freeing...
so i took out my ipad and wrote...
my mother used to warn me
of the evils of this place
she said listen to these words
and you'll know what to face.
hold on daughter as tight as you can
hold on to the promise land
hold on to what you know
and hold on to what'll never show.
there's a great world upon us
we want to take it in one hand
do what you can to stop us
we're gonna roam this land.
these words enter my mind in darkness
yet they'll act out in the light
i'm gonna rise up from the thick fog
and i'm gonna win this fight.
the world's mine to grasp
it's just a matter of removing it's mask.
i don't often share poems on here. yet this one brought upon such a freeing feeling that i felt it needed to be shared.
life is funny sometimes. and instead of getting angry over little instances that are easy to get annoyed over, sometimes you just need to laugh. a big, obnoxious laugh. oh, and talk to the strangers next to you that are in the same boat. even if they give you a weird look for talking to them (hey, just wanting a little conversation here!) it's all worth it.
i heard the storm coming and i got excited. so i quickly put on my cute flower sweater, some jeans, and decided i needed a hot cocoa. i then exited the building on my way to the market when it started sprinkling. no big deal i can handle some raindrops.
but then on the way back... the Heaven's opened up. Hellloooo rain.
i stood there for a few minutes debating whether or not i just sprint back to my dorm with a hot cup of cocoa in my hand or wait a little bit. (i actually did my hair today. it was a big deal.)
i decided to run.
and wouldn't you know it, i got soaked. but it's all good! it's a funny story and it's not like i'm going to melt from some rain. even if it feels like i just showered with my clothes on. :)
Lately I have been looking all over the cyberspace for bookshelf ideas because I get to decorate my room when I head back home in November and December. I am extremely excited about this and have already come up with a sketch of how I want the room to look like. :)
Here are some pictures of beautiful bookshelves I found on Pinterest. Enjoy!
I'm definitely going to color coordinate my books. LOVE this look.
Such a unique idea!
Pinterest is great for inspiration!
Also, just a side note but in case you're interested in what I'm listening to (and because I want to promote this band because they are incredible), it is currently Needtobreath's new album called The Reckoning. Go get it now!
yesterday was wonderful. the kind of day where i forgot how old i was and that, oh yeah, i am in college. i was able to rest my head on my mom's shoulders and be a total goofball with my dad. we had heart-to-hearts and the day was ours. if i haven't said it before, i love my parents.
we went to Mt. Lemmon and reveled in God's beautiful land
watched as my dad (yeah, that little white speck) climbed
huge rocks while we panicked a little
ate some of the best gelato i've ever had
and watched the wildcats lose to the ducks but it was
still a blast
honestly, we left at half time because it was obvious who was going to win (ducks) and my mom and i went and saw Abduction. good movie. i'd recommend it. :)
now they are heading home soon and i'm back to collegiate life.
I love Fall. Probably more than I love Spring. There is something about the changing of the weather from almost unbearable hot to something cool and cozy. Because I love it so much, I thought I'd share some pictures of beautiful leaves. So without further adieu:
Hope you enjoyed these pretty pictures of leaves as much as I did. I won't be seeing any of these types of pictures in my day-to-day life since I live in the desert so I have to indulge in these.
i recently watched the kennedy's miniseries. (if you follow me on twitter, you are fully aware of this) after finishing all 8 episodes, i have reached a few conclusions.
1. i'm not a big fan of JFK. (at least from what i saw in the mini series) he didn't respect jackie and their marriage enough and to me, that speaks volumes.
2. jackie kennedy was wonderful. and her clothes were absolutely beautiful.
3. bobby kennedy is my favorite kennedy. he is my current obsession. this may sound horrible, but when they showed the scene where JFK was shot, i didn't shed a tear. didn't get emotional at all. but when they showed bobby being assassinated, not only were the flood gates opened, but i was furious. i guess i realized he died but i was crying like a baby when they played it out on screen. plus, his and ethel's marriage was just too good. love her.
i would recommend watching it, even if only for the clothes. :)
our room is slowly coming together. we still have changes that we want to make in order for it to feel more like our home but for now, we are content. kylie bought a tree decal from target yesterday and we were all giddy to put it up and then, to name all the birds that came with it. so without further adieu, the tree:
i also drew the three of us.
meet don draper. (yes, that don draper)
meet bobby (yes, bobby kennedy. the obsession continues)
meet georgia (my future childs name)
and meet noah (another future child's name)
each and every one of the birds are named and it puts a smile on my face to see this tree every time i walk in the room.
before i left for college, i bought an "A" "H" and "K" for Allie, Hanna, and Kylie. We have been saying we were going to paint them since the first weekend here yet they just stayed on top of the TV and not painted. So I started the painting of the letters...
before (Hanna's since I forgot to take a picture of mine before)
Blue coat on
today is game day (beat the cardinals!) and I also made a headband out of the bottom of my shirt. I guess I was just feeling creative. :)
lately, ive been feeling very grateful. grateful for this restored faith in God, new friends that make me a better person each time i see them, old friends that bring tears to my eyes every time i think of them, and little things like Arizona sunsets (see picture), thunderstorms, the brick walls of my dorm and coffee.
this week is hectic. crazy. the kind of week any college kid could tell you about. pile all of that on top of the insane amount of things i signed up for (overachiever in the house) and that i'm taking a language i've never taken before. (ciao italiano!) one could say i'm barely hanging on at times.
but then i go to youth group and feel renewed. then i see people from retreat and feel this warmth. i see beautiful cloud patterns and i pray. i pray for me, for you and for the people i'll never meet of this world. and i can breathe. even if just for a second.
or i'll get a letter from one of my best friends or a facebook wall post from another and these tears build up. good tears. "i miss you" tears.
i'm hesistant to talk about this past weekend. in some ways, it feels like i'm holding this bottle beaming with love, light, and energy and if i release it, it'll be hard to contain all of it once again. so i'll be brief.
have you ever had one of those spiritually enlightening weekends? the kinds where you meet tons of people who are loving, caring and share your same faith? the kind of people who hug you a lot just because they look at you and know you could use a hug. where you come back, a changed person?
that was this weekend.
first, i was able to escape the desert heat and head up to the mountains of Arizona (breathtaking) and then i was able to share my faith, that i often keep concealed, with people who understand where i'm coming from.
then today, as i'm walking around campus i saw at least 5 people from the retreat and i was able to call out to them and in each other's eyes, we understood one another. no oral communication needed. that, is powerful stuff.
let me know if you've experience something like my weekend. :)
Song of the Day:
Restless by Audrey Assad.
(listen to it with the lyrics in view. the lyrics are the most powerful part.)
On the day of the Chai hunt, I decided to do the no heat curl again. This time it came out a little differently. The curls were tighter and very 1950's. So I decided to play it up a little bit and wear my high waisted skirt.
And I even wore a little red-ish lipstick. Perfect cafe hunting attire. :)
has anyone done any studying abroad while they were in college? I am deciding on whether or not I should study abroad in Italy for an entire spring semester next year or if i should do a semester at sea? Any suggestions? comments? have you done either of these?
i would really like some feedback on a semester at sea. was it enough time in each country? do you feel enriched by the experienced? let me know, please! :)
I feel so blessed to have the people above in my life right now. I feel like we've created a comfortable little family away from our real families. I still miss certain friends like crazy (*cough cough* Katie) but overall, I'm happy with my little group of friends here.
I see people with all these acquaintances that they've met here and sure, I'll get jealous that I haven't met more people myself at times, but then I remember how lucky I am to have met these people and tell my inside self to shut up. :)
My friend Seth and I are hardcore chai tea lovers. We won't settle for anything mediocre. Especially since we are poor college students. :( So we decided to go on the hunt for the best chai in the area. Here was our day:
The day began with brunch at this adorable place called Wilko. I got their tomato soup. Best tomato soup I've ever had. Then the hunt began. We went to 4 different cafes, 2 being a 10 minute bike ride away. You could say I was exhausted after visiting those two. But one of them, Cartel Coffee Lab, reminded me of Bloom back home and therefore has a little piece of my heart. But the other, was not very worthy of our money. Except for their to die for midnight chocolate cake. Swoon!
Then it was off to Time Market, where they have pizza named after F. Scott Fitzgerald's books (therefore I'll be going back) and Epic Cafe, which was the WINNER of our hunt. On our way back from Cartel Coffee Lab and Raging Sage, we stopped by Bookmen's. Apparently this place is big in Arizona, but I had never been to one. It is now my favorite place to buy used books. It's basically heaven. And look what I picked up?? F. Scott Fitzgerald's short stories for $9! I guess you could say it was a Fitzgerald type of day. :)